Did I ever tell you about the time…

There is no ghost, or at least I do not think so. Last night at about 10 pm I sent my sister a text to ask her a question that I already knew the answer to. Then we got to talking about Boys and Men… and how we should both worry less. It was a little strange how one minute she would be telling me something and it seemed no less than ten minutes later I was telling her something similar.

I do not know why we both think that if WE do everything the right way than our problems will all be solved. Once we meet a guy if we say the right things and do the right things that it will all fall into place, but I think not. I think there has to be a lot of magic involved. And what is magic, but some fun trickery in which all want to be involved. I am not a magician… I am not saying that love is a trick. I believe in love, but I think that it is love that makes all the smoke and mirrors work. I believe that you have to work on love, because you choose to love.

Anyways after the long conversation in which we both got worked up and solved nothing… I could not fall asleep. But it seems that soon after I did fall asleep, I half awoke to hear a female voice talking. I thought, “Well its my neighbors outside. Wow, it sounds like someone is right down stairs… Is someone down stairs? Now why are you trying to scare yourself.” So I got up and checked the window and it was closed… I tried to look outside, but I saw nothing, because I did not have my glasses on.

 But then again… ever since I have been looking I have not heard anything. Plus who would be up so late, talking so loud… and actually it was not a loud talking, it was just a carrying voice. So I laid back down and heard it again… But I was so tired that I could not care anymore, and my last thought before drifting back off to sleep was that, “No one should have to sleep alone.”

Needless to say, I did not sleep well last night!

So I am driving the “new to me” car and I realize that after all the work I did… meaning all the nights I searched and searched online. all the dealerships that I went to over and over. plus all the test drives. and looking and debating… that now all that time does not feel wasted. In fact I think that I could have spent more time, but I am happy with my decision. And it was the first time, in a long time, that I applied continually pressure on myself to get something done the right way. Which helped with my thinking about what my future holds. Once I decide to do something about it, it gets done. Hmmm, what’s next.

Plus it took some of the mental pressure that I put on myself to get it done yesterday. I always feel that I am catching up and corrected the things I should have done in the first place. I am working on this whole slowing down process, and thats slow work.

I love this weather. I love walking outside and feel that ping in the air. I love how people seem to smile more. And I think that I tend to have more crushes in the fall. Its the same time of the year in which I decide that I should try and go out on a couple of dates before the year changes.

I do have a two tiny crushes at the moment. One is with the guy who is selling me a car… But at this point in the very frustrating car hunt I kind of worry about myself. I can’t even focus on important things without my mind going to the “hmm, he is kind of cute.” Come to think of it I had a crush on the guy that was fixing my car just the other month. Anyways, this guy actually invitied me to come and watch a band play. Its the owner of the dealership’s band and they were having a private party. So it could have been just one of those I would really like to sell you a car sort of things. I did not go, but kind of wished that I had.

The other will not happen at the moment. He is on his way to be divorced, but there is NO WAY that I will get caught in the middle of that. There are way too many guys out there for that… But a group of us went out for lunch and I just got that attraction vibe. But I do not know the man, or the situation that he is coming from.  He has the cutest daughters.

Well thats about all the news there is… Actually I am sure there has been a lot more that has gone on, but at the moment I do not really feel like writing about it. All I wanted to do was write about my crushes so that I could have a little more fun with it.